APRIL 2018
JANUARY 2025
(left) When I was hurt, traumatized by men & boys, bore emotional damage from childhood, & lost touch of & even hated my femininity. I believed no loving God could exist if He let me suffer as much hardship and pain as I had. I sought revenge on men by competing with them for the sexuality of the women they found desirable. I objectified and degraded women, the same way that low-quality men do. I truly thought I was queer.
(Right) transformed by God, His healing and powerful love & His Word, which reflects in every aspect of my life now. I began journaling to God as I started going to church with my boyfriend in March of 2024. A month later, God met me in my car, driving home from vacation and made me realize that I was never actually “gay”. He made me see that my entire time spent in homosexuality was just a horrifying trauma response. Before too long, I invited Jesus Christ into my heart, and He got to work immediately on completing a deep clean. I began reading God’s word (The Holy Bible) with my boyfriend, and THAT is when the supernatural work really started. Unexplainably, I had a new desire to cut off my former self completely. I went through my closet and started tossing articles of clothing aside that did not look like something a Christian Woman would wear. I became very intentional with my accessories. If I caught myself wearing an accessory for attention (like a nose ring), then I stopped wearing it. I no longer wanted to be associated with my old self in any way. I was a new creation, and I wanted it to be very obvious. Now, I fully embrace my femininity every way I possibly can. I try to glorify God the best I can, because I love Him!
